me

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. It feels pretty good. Seriously, I've been inspired to really examine myself and my life and find ways to be happier and really get to know myself. I've started writing in my journal again and I'm trying to figure out how to go about this. I've been inspired by many sources, the main one of which is a show called Starting Over. It's on at 4:00AM and when you have insomnia it's that or some guy hawking his bowel cleanser. I'm kind of getting hooked on it. The show, not the laxative. Also, my dad writing his autobiography has reminded me that I've always wanted to do the same.

You hear of people "figuring out who they are" all the time and I never really realized what all that entails. I used to hear that and think, "Well DUH! I'm me!" But if you really try to answer that, it's a hard question. I've been drifting along for far too many years. I want to be a better person. I want to be a happier person. I want to be able to hear people going on about American Idol or how horrible gas prices are (and they drive unnecessary SUV's) without my blood boiling. I want to learn how to love everyone. I want to be a better wife. I want to fix myself now before I have kids.

I have a long road ahead of me...